It is now 14:25 Beijing time and I am 3 hours and 25 minutes on board. The aircraft has entered a stable flight stage, flying at an altitude of 8412 meters, and the cabin temperature is moderate and humid Some passengers in the flight are addicted to mobile phones, some read books and newspapers, and some are asleep. On the flight. I was looking at the clouds outside the window.

Today’s clouds have a feeling of overwhelming clouds, mountains. and seas. They are so white that I cannot even dare to come out of the atmosphere. As soon as this person calmed down, his mind began to think about things, so during this flight. I wanted to think about landing.

I walked from the ignorance of my youth. I stumbled to the sound of people. I was noticed. I was judged. From the very beginning. I took a step larger than others, to the fast pace and relying on inertia to advance, and then I was flying with what I was holding. Maybe he was young and did not know what fatigue was. Until I slowly grew into an adult the protective shell of the “child” shattered bit by bit. and I needed to face the trial of strength in all directions alone, and also to face my inner self.

Looking back. I admit that for a while, I was at loss, at loss for what to do, and even felt a huge sense of powerlessness. The dreams in the distance, one journey after another seamlessly. I must always cheer up. If you say that life as an entertainer is a performance that never ends, every day at sunset when the hotel door is closed, and when the noise of people drifts away. I always take a long breath and slumped on the sofa. I said to myself: “Congratulations, another day in peace”.

Slowly. I also realized the danger of this state. I began to frequently think and examine my current work, life, and the relationship structure around me I also ask myself is the current life what you want? Is the current state you feel comfortable in? The answer is unknown.

We are not living alone. This is an objective fact that cannot be violated or changed, but we can adjust our vision of the world and our heart in life. After understanding this truth, those inner ques- tions seem to become less important I tried hard to tie myself to the ground, wanting to get out of my own pace and give myself a sense of security and happiness.

I used to feel that happiness is very far away. I want my dreams to come true. I want to achieve something. I yearn to fly to a higher place, see more and more magnificent scenery, and listen to more applause. In recent years, my definition of happiness has changed a lot and I often feel that I am happy. What is happiness? For me, happiness is a table of delicious Sichuan food: It’s just after running. the foot just entered the house, the rear foot window is pattering. and the rain is pattering, and the rustling of rain on the leaves it is the end of a long day of work and the shower comes to the living room. The TV is showing the news, and the kettle in the kitchen is boiling water and screaming: There are a few characters who tell me his stories in detail. I can share the sorrow and joy with him, become him and say goodbye to him it is in a different strange city. No matter the sky, it is sunny or raining, always waiting for me, smiling faces open to me… I call this ‘vulgar happiness.

When I am about 20 years old. I want to record these little thoughts in my heart in the form of words and share with you those little moments that I think push me forward. It may not be long before someone puts the text in this book in front of me, and I will wave my hand embarrassedly “What is this, don’t show it to me, don’t show it to me”. but at this moment I really want to share it with you, and also with my future self.

I hope we can all have dreams to realize, direction to work hard, and life to feel. I think we can have as much vulgar happiness as possible. If these phrases and photos can also be a small piece of it it would be even better.

Translation credit to  @wuleiarchive